Jolie Holland - "I Used To Be An Angel, Now I'm Just Like Everybody Else"

Jolie Holland holds the accolade of playing one of theshe was to be playing in San Francisco during the
best and one of the worst gigs I have ever been to.time some friends and I were going to be there! As
Hailing from Houston, Texas, Ms Holland made hersoon as they went on sale, I booked three tickets
name with (and was a founding member of) The Beover the internet (how jet-setting am I booking
Good Tanyas, before releasing her first solo effort,tickets for a concert on another continent?!).
Catalpa, in 2003. Catalpa was recorded in a homeSo, having seriously 'bigged her up' to my friends,
studio and was never intended for release. Thewho had never heard of her, we spent that day
sound quality is appalling, but the songs are beautifulpootling up through Chinatown, past the
and Holland's languid voice beguiling. The opening line,Transamerica Pyramid, calling in at the infamous City
on the song Alley Flowers, is the wonderful "SomeLights book store, before taking in Lombard Street
people say I got a psychadelic presence/Shining inand North Beach. Our destination was Bimbo's 365,
the park with a bioluminescence".where Ms Holland would be playing.
2004 brought Escondida, a much more polished studioAfter waiting in line outside for eons we finally got in,
consignment, and one which brought her to theonly to find out that almost every seat in the house
attention of the music press in a big way. Holland'shad been reserved in advance (which, as 'auslanders'
strange, almost eerie intonation and phrasing werewe could not have known). We took some seats
captivating, sounding like nothing that had been heardright near the back and decided to get a drink...which
before, whilst somehow still managing to sound likewas extortionate, particularly if, as expected, you
old-time music from decades past. Her jazzy-bluesytook advantage of the table service. The venue itself
voice (of, almost unbelievably, a woman then agedwas capacious, yet somehow still quite dingy and,
only 29) ambled its way through folk-tinged,however many miles it was that we were from the
country-styled numbers...this was rootsy, yetstage, our vantage point was disappointing. But not
somehow fresh.to worry - she would be so excellent that it would
It was shortly after the release of Escondida that Ibe as if warm honey had been poured into my
first saw Holland playing live. The venue was the Livefriends' virgin ears and this wouldn't matter a jot!
Theatre in Newcastle, a small and charming place forSadly, I was mistaken.
which I have always had something of a soft spotShe took to the stage looking somewhat bewildered
(and which, following a regeneration, has veryand lackadaisical, demanding that someone bring her
recently reopened). She came on stage, in a ratherbag, which she had left backstage, to her. Then
odd and mismatched outfit, every bit the small townfollowed an entire evening's worth of dull
gal. She was as humble as she was mesmerising. Themeanderings, reworkings of every song so that they
band was astoundingly good...these people were truebecame tuneless, pointless and, frankly, boring. I was
musicians, and this included Holland, who turned herso disappointed...and embarrassed to have sung her
hand to guitar and ukelele (and, as I remember, fiddlepraises so highly when this had been my friends'
too). Her natural talent was obvious and she seemedintroduction to her music! We even considered
sweet and shy as she introduced each song in agetting out our pack of cards to keep us
drawl so thick you couldn't help but warm to her. Ientertained, but general Britishness prevented this!
really felt, on this night, that I had been let in onEvery single song was completely immemorable and
some very special secret. I even got a hug from theMs Holland appeared to have picked up quite an
woman herself at the end of the gig and came awayattitude somewhere along the way. No longer the
feeling high and happy, like my soul had grown a little.charming, unassuming woman sitting in front of us,
In addition to songs from the two albums she hadthis was someone who told a girl at the front of the
released, she played us a new song that she hadaudience to be quiet (fair enough) whilst she was on
been working on, called Moonshiner, which we werestage, addressing her as "Baby doll" (patronising, quite
later to hear on her 2006 album Springtime Can Killrude and not fair enough!). When the evening finally
You. For me, this release was somewhatwound to a close my friends were so infused with
disappointing; and from someone I had thought couldennui that they didn't even feel like going on
do no wrong. The captivating voice was still there,elsewhere for a post-gig drink.
and it still sounded pleasant, but the songs just didThere is a lesson in here somewhere I am sure.
not engage me and etch themselves into myPerhaps it is about not putting people on a pedestal,
consciousness as those on the previous two albums.perhaps it is about taking each individual experience
I would be hard pressed, even now, to hum any offor what it is and not expecting to be able to
them for you, or to name any beyond the title trackrecreate it. Perhaps it is simply that one should keep
and the aforementioned Moonshiner.one's expectations low?
But when I found out Holland was going to beDespite my disappointment in the way Jolie Holland
touring again I was keen to get in on the action,has gone, I would still thoroughly recommended the
having enjoyed my evening so much previously.first two albums, particularly Escondida...definitely
Gutted was I, then, to find that she wouldn't beworth an investment.
coming to the UK. And ecstatic when I realised that